To drink or not to drink.......

Its been awhile since I have sat down and wrote anything about my recovery. I will tell you that I have been "wishing" I could drink again but just not as bad as I use to. It's funny because now I see my son drinking a lot and I have mixed emotions. Part of me prays he will stop drinking because alcoholism runs in both sides of his family. Another part of me wants to drink with him. So as I think back to the fun I use to have I am reminded of some of the embarrassing and stupid things Ive done while drinking and that alone makes me realize I will never drink again.